So, another way I am working on my intuition is by getting rolfed.

The official definition of rolfing is this: “

Rolfing, also called Rolf therapy or structural integration, is a holistic system of bodywork that uses deep manipulation of the body’s soft tissue to realign and balance the body’s myofascial structure. Rolfing improves posture, relieves chronic pain, and reduces stress.”, according to a medical dictionary online. It helps with physical ailments, but it also helps with emotional aspects as well.

The reason I am doing it, besides back pain I am too young to have, is this: I know I hide many emotions in different parts of my body. Erika told me I hide fear in my back, hips and knees. By getting rolfed for 10 sessions, all your emotional hiding spots are forced open and the emotions spill out. So, over the 10 weeks, one deals with all sorts of emotions as well as improving physical ailments. I am hoping that, at that point, I will be able to use more of my intuition, without the fear involved.

The first week, the only thing I knew to expect was lots of pain. Brooke did an overview of the whole body for me, and it wasn’t too bad. The next day, my left knee and my ribs hurt, but everything else was good. That week went fine.

The second week was a little different. It was very painful, as she worked my feet a lot. My whole life, my normal stance for my right foot has been turned out instead of straight. So, lots of work was done to remedy that. Almost an hour was spent on my legs, from the knees down. It was so painful, that I had to keep reminding myself to breathe, and that, in the end, this would all be worth it. To be successful, and to train your body into behaving the way it should, you must first endure physical hurt to get there. It’s only temporary, and worth it in the end. She then showed me the best way to walk, and I was to practice it for the next week.

The first day, my feet were both very sore. That was to be expected. I could live with that. But, then every day was a new and different pain, only to be gone the day after that. First it was my sore knees, then sore right side of my back, then middle back, then feet again. Last night, it was a sore left knee I discovered on my walk. I decided that’s good, as that is the fear leaving my body.

My emotions have been all over the place too. That is normal. Brooke says just to let the emotions happen. Feel them. First, I was happy, then really mad. Once I got over that, things were good for a few days. Then, the anger came back. Potty mouth from my younger years was back, along with a short temper. Just lovely!!

Today is my 3^rd session, and I can’t wait to find out what is going to happen to my body.

What excruciating pain will be delivered today, only to be gone in the next few days? What body part will be sore, what emotion will pop out at the most unexpected time? In line at the grocery store? On the phone with my friend? Come on, body! Bring it on! I love it, because I know that, in the end, all my body’s secret hiding spots will be gone and exposed to me, and my intuition will be at 100%!

K. Gotta go endure pain now.

Until next time….