I have written this weeks’ blog entry as a future blog, looking back at the past year. This exercise helps with visualization. Many people say change occurs easier when you can picture it in your mind. This has always been the easiest way for me to accomplish that.

Today is October 16, 2013, exactly one year since my last rolfing session. I decided to write a blog about what my last year has entailed.

First of all, rolfing really helped me, emotionally as well as physically. Physically was huge. My back pain went away completely, mostly because of all the work done on my feet. They were pretty far away from “normal alignment” (I used to say they were pretty messed up, but Brooke taught me that no one is “messed up”. Never put a negative turn on things. Every body is different!) When I was born, my right foot was turned out. I wore a brace when I was really little, but it only did so much good. So, for 46 years, my right foot was out of alignment. You can imagine the havoc that caused on my body! So, after 10 rolfing sessions, where each one focused a little on my feet, my normal stance became… well, normal! That of course, caused much less back pain, which caused less neck pain, and so on. So, physically, I feel great now!

Emotionally, it helped me a lot too! It helped me release the fear of not being in control. That was starting to complicate my life in many ways, the biggest one being my fear of driving in the snow. Come on now-in Colorado? That can affect you tons in the winter!

How did rolfing help with that? Well, it brought up a memory of me being hit by a toboggan at age 5. I was hit head on, and it made me flip in the air and land flat on my back, knocking the wind out of me. I woke up with my dad on top of me, telling me not to move a muscle (he thought I broke every bone in my body), and all these people staring at me! That’s pretty traumatic for a 5-year-old! I was fine physically, but it then affected me for the next 40 years. I, without realizing it, became afraid to do anything that may cause me to lose control. Skiing was pretty much out, along with sledding, tobogganing, even riding the giant slides in the summer. It didn’t affect my driving until just a few years ago when I couldn’t stop in the snow, and came centimeters from the car in front of me. Even though I wasn’t in an accident, it was close enough that I became terrified of it. But, rolfing made me acknowledge, and release those fears.

So, in the past year, I have had quite a few accomplishments! I have driven in the snow, all winter (and we had a pretty snowy winter this year). I have put out all positive vibes and thoughts, so my practice has improved, and my Reiki is now busier than my massage practice, and I have been doing 15-20 hours a week combined! I have finally lost the 30 pounds I have been wanting to lose for a long time, and did that by going on more walks, and enjoying the lovely outdoors! The trickle down effect is that my dogs have both lost their extra pounds, and so has Chris! We have started hiking in the beautiful mountains of our lovely town. There are so many trails, we are always finding new ones to explore.

Another change is that I have totally de-cluttered my life. That includes my house, of course, as it is cleaner and more orgainzed than ever! But, it also includes my friends. I have let go of any friends that were not helping me move forward with the good things in life. That was a really hard thing to do, but I am amazed at the outcome! Suddenly, I started finding new friends in places that I least exptected it! New friends who are good influences on my life and thoughts, and married friends who both Chris and I could hang out with. It was amazing! They started coming out of the woodwork, and now we have a new group that we hang out with on a regular basis!

My relationship with Chris has gotten even stronger, as I have a new-found sense of who I am, and accept it. He totally trusts my intuition, too, which is awesome! I don’t have to hide my true self. And all this started happening because I did my rolfing, and allowed myself to be totally open to what would come out of it.

I have thought about becoming a rolfer, but decided against it. I absolutely love what I am doing now, and can’t imagine doing anything else. And, once I realized that, that was when everything really fell into place, and put me where I am today.