Well, it has been another 7 weeks since I last blogged. This year has just been flying by! I have been pulling my oracle cards this week, and several times I pulled the “Creative Expressions” card.  So, here I am!

I just read the last blog I wrote. It is amazing how so much of what I wrote is happening, with little or no effort on my part. I truly believe in the “If you put it out there, it will happen” philosophy, as that is what has been happeneing for me. I have been living my life without fear a lot more. I am not afraid of getting sick, of being alone, of the unknown. I am working on letting go of the past, for me and my family. The interesting thing to me is…the old friends I decided to let go of, changed. All along I thought it was supposed to be a long time friend of mine. Even over these last few years, I kept getting the feeling that if I let go of her, things would improve. Instead, I think I let go of some old feelings I had been holding onto for years. We go back 30 years, and have been through thick and thin together. She is my sister, and always will be. I recently wrote her a letter, telling her how I feel, and since then, it is all better. We are doing better than ever, and I no longer have the feeling that we need to part ways. Instead, those feelings have moved on to a mutual friend of ours, that does no one any good. I find myself very upset at this friend for how she treats my friend AND my husband. After long consideration, I decided she needs to go. I am officially “moving on” from her. And, I feel great about it!

I also discovered I have long time, deep down issues with authority that I am letting go of. They are no longer serving any purpose, since I am now 47 years old, and over it all! I have always had a slight amount of rebellion in me, and acted out in little ways. You know—like cranking my music a little too loud, having a big purple trash can at my trailer park when only gray was allowed, getting an antennae put on my trailer, knowing we weren’t allowed one. Little things that could get me in a little trouble, but nothing major.

The main way it has come out lately is my dislike of cops. When it comes up, which it has come up more lately because of all the dogs who have been shot by cops lately, I feel myself getting very angry. I get a very negative attitude about it, and I hate that. I am realizing that there are a lot of bad cops out there, and there really is not much that we can do about it. Just don’t do anything that is cop-worthy, which, besides driving, is easy to do. I recently learned it is frowned upon by cops to flash your lights at oncoming cars when you see a cop radaring for speeders. Apparently, a cop saw me do it, so he followed me for 2 miles, just waiting to pull me over. Yet, I gave him no reason to, so he had to move on to someone else. That sure pumped me up! It was then I realized this is something that is holding anger inside of me, and I just need to LET IT GO!! (deep breath, Jen! I feel the heart pounding faster already!)

So, I am hereby letting go of any old feelings and dissapointments that I have suffered in the past regarding bad cops. That does not mean I will stop letting oncoming cars know there is a cop hiding. It does not mean that I will not voice my opinion of dogs getting shot by uncaring officers. It means that I will find a constructive way to help stop it. I will, however, let go of tense, angry feelings that come up when the topic arises.

Wow, I feel better already! This whole letting-go process is a long one! I am sure deeper issues will now come up that I will have to blog about and let go of. And, I will just keep on keepin’ on!

The good news is my intuition has really been improving! My husband even made a comment last night that my intuition is great, and that I am pretty much always “right on” with my assessments. That totally made my day!

So, until next time…