Wow. Today is April 28, 2013. What a crazy month it has been. Not just crazy for me—-crazy for the whole world. There have been bombings and explosions in the United States;  the threat of nuclear war in North Korea;  earthquakes, sink holes, landslides, avalanches, all killing innocent people. Mother nature is not a happy camper.

A client of mine told me all this would happen. In March. Now, I don’t agree with most of what she said, but some of it is coming true. December 2012 did not mean the end of the world. It meant the beginning of the spiritual awakening. Huge things would start to happen, she said. Those who don’t “believe” will just die. Those who do “believe” will be ok. You just have to know that it will all be ok in the end, after all these bad things happen, she said. It is not a GOD thing…it is a spiritual thing. Those people who DON’T believe in god, but do believe in spirituality get it. You just have to believe in something greater than yourself, and know it will be ok in the end. Why would you want to believe otherwise?

Personally, I’m getting there. It still seems kind of out there for me. However, as time goes on, I am understanding the idea of believing in something greater and more powerful than yourself. It is comforting for me to say I have angels surrounding me at all times. It makes me feel safe.

I have been told many times that this year would bring about a lot of change for me. I now believe that is true. April has brought on the beginnings of this for me.

I am in the process of getting a new massage office. I have been in my current space for more than half of my 12 1/2 year career. Moving is a huge decision. However, I am tired of the responsibility of running my space, dealing with being a landlord, finding tenants, and paying all the rent if they move out. So, I am giving up the security of having my own space, and paying up to $550 a month, to share a big suite with 12 other therapists, and pay $150 a month. This is a huge decision for me. It is the unknown, and I am NOT good at that! I have a thing about control, and by doing something like this, I will be giving that up. It will be so good for me! But so scary as well. I have a lot of “what-if’s” in my head. (What if all the rooms are full, what if there is a lot of drama, what if I don’t get along with some of the therapists” blah-blah-blah). The answer to every question is “It will all be fine! You’ll see!” Just KNOW everything will be ok, and don’t sweat the small stuff, I keep telling myself.

I am also in the process of finding a new massage therapist, and possibly a new intuitive healer. Maybe even one person for both. Both of these are my decision. It is just time to move on. I have discovered that it feels good to say how you really feel, but deep down, no one really wants to hear it. So, you may free yourself by speaking the truth, but you then must deal with the consequences of hurting or annoying others, whether that be your choice or theirs. And, this is all change, all at once for me.

Part of me is really excited about the unknown. I really like the manager at my new office. We have the potential to be good friends, as we have a lot of similar qualities. In fact, there is the potential for a lot of new friends, with 12 new suite-mates. I am in the process of letting go of some of my current friends as well, so the friend department will be ready to be replenished. What a perfect place to do that!

Thank goodness I know my HUSBAND is around for good, as are my two best friends. I couldn’t have gotten through this difficult month without the three of them by my side. We are lifers (together for life), which is so good to know! Other wise, I would have that worry in me as well! 

So, as this emotional month comes to a close, a new month begins. The moving won’t take place for a few months, but the rest of the change is immediate. My heart is mending from losing some, but is ready for the adventure of finding the new. Because you never know what is out there around the corner, just waiting to be found, unless you go out and look for it. And, I am ready!!

Until next time….