So, today is the first day of the rest of my life. Wait…isn’t that every day? (sorry, a little humor there). Actually, today is the first day of my new way of eating (and living, I suppose.) Today I started “Project Me”. It is a weight-loss program through Herbalife. But, it is so much more than the food, as it also has a ton of support and guidance. And, their idea is 80% nutrition, 20% working out. I like that! I have always known my nutrition was really lacking, but have never really done a lot about it. Just recently, I discovered (through intuition, I might add) that my severe anemia several years ago was caused by bad nutrition. Once I was told this by my never-wrong Intuitive coach, I realized that my doctor at the time never ONCE asked me about my nutrition. Had she asked me that to begin with, I might have done my “AHA” moment THEN!!!

This program has a ton of supplements, to really help you get every thing you need. For someone like me, who has never cooked a lot, doesn’t eat enough veggies and is pretty good at just eating what I am told, it is pretty helpful. I have been really really excited to start it, and get in shape for my big weekend in September.

Until today. The day I officially started it. Today was the day that all the programs I have failed at came back to me. All the times I have tried diets and had the “THIS IS THE ONE” attitude. Many of my loved ones have reminded me of these times, not out of spite, but out of “yeah, we’ve all heard this before. Why can’t you just eat right and do it on your own?” In the past, I might have listened to them. And, this morning, my brain started to go there, and I started getting the defeatist attitude before I even started. I almost convinced myself to not even try, because I was just going to fail anyway. Why spend the time and money on it? Why not just love and accept myself the way I am? (which I finally have done, by the way. Only, now I want to be an even better version of myself.)

Then, I snapped out of it. I realized that was the old me. I have been doing my work with my coach on being a better version of me. I have let go of so many deep dark feelings that I didn’t even know I had. I have even done past-life regression, physically felt what I discovered in doing those, and fully let them go. I am now physically feeling better than I have for a long time. I am not waking up with back pain anymore. Finally, because that has been going on for, what seems like, forever.

The new me is strong, confident, proud of who I am, beautiful. All of these are currently on the inside now, waiting to break free from my shield of weight. I am ready for the world to see the real me, as I am just discovering her, and I really like her! I want to BE her. I want the beauty on the inside to show on the outside, so the real me shines through. If I get to let all this happen, and wear really cute clothes too, then LET’S DO IT!

So, after I came so close to giving up before I even started, I snapped out of it. I AM GOING TO DO THIS!! I told myself, as I gulped through my shake (which was, actually, pretty good.) I took all my supplements, and now already feel more energy. I have to KNOW I can get through this-I can beat the epidemic of weight (and get the diagnoses of obesity OFF my medical record, as that is really what kicked me in the butt. I didn’t like seeing that one AT ALL!)

So, here is to my new life! And, once I have done so well in the first month, I will KNOW I am going to continue to my goal. and beyond! One day at a time!

Until next time….