Today, I am double-blogging. I am blogging now, before my big Reiki session, and then I will blog afterwards.

Sixteen days ago, I gave up eating dairy for 30 days. I mostly did it because my husband was giving up drinking alcohol for 30 days, and to be supportive, I told him I would give up ice cream (my alcohol). That then turned into dairy. At first, it wasn’t that big of a deal to me. However, these last 2 days have been the most difficult yet. I am realizing what an emotional crutch it has been for me, for my ENTIRE life. Eating it would ” make me feel better” as I caught myself saying once. Wow! Really?

So, now I am having to deal with my emotions as they come up, instead of stuffing them with food. What I am finding is the more I deal with them and let them go, the better I feel (or WILL feel). So, it is worth it.

Today’s Reiki session will be a big “letting-go” session—letting go of all the emotions that have come up over the past few weeks. I have come so far in the last year, but lately, I feel like I have taken a step back. Today, I will let go of all that, so I can take many steps forward and reach my destination of total spiritual awareness. Yes!! So, now I am excited to do it, but I admit, I have a little fear and anxiety over it, too. Those are some deep down emotions I have been dealing with lately!

 Harley and I.                                         Sleeping Shiloh after my session.

After my session…

Well, I just had my very emotional and intense, but very successful Reiki session. Thankfully, Erika brought her Reiki partner, Harley, for amazing doggy moral support. I gave him so much love the minute I saw him, and it was immediately reciprocated, which always helps. After a tearful explanation of where I am, and what I am looking for, we began our session.

One thing I have learned from the past is there is never any “lying” or “hiding” things from Erika, as she knows all. Actually, let me rephrase that–she is “told” all. She saw everything I mentioned above. We cleared sooo much unnecessary “stuff” that I was holding onto, of my own and of others. She also told me again that Shiloh is “very in-tune” with me, which makes sense, because she had been acting off too. (I see that since I have been home, Shiloh is completely relaxed.) I will do more Reiki on her, and will continue to notice when she seems off. That is always my sign to look deep inside me, too.

As Erika simply held her hands under my back and released everything, it felt like pressure came out from my right leg. It was as if a cat had been laying on it, and suddenly jumped off. It was a pretty amazing feeling, since I could actually “feel” energy leaving my body. Wow! Erika could also feel it all leave. We focused on my breathing, which I will continue to focus on from now on. My spirit guides told me “You’ve got this, and We’ve got you”, which is a lovely little message that they are always with me, protecting me, helping me, for always. Deep down, I have felt alone lately, with the losing and passing of several friends. You see, I am in a “9” year in Numerology, which means it is a big “ending” year. It is an important year for letting go—of people, habits, and situations—that don’t serve me anymore. And then it will be time to “re-invent” myself, which I have already started doing. As some friends leave, it is normal to feel a little lonely and “alone” as new friends enter. I am currently in that in-between stage. Honestly, it is a nice place to be-and, it makes sense, since I wrote in my last blog about my not making new friends lately. It simply means it is time to invite new people into my life who will help me “be” the person I am working on being. Since I worked on letting go of so much today, I know that will come easier now.

I also learned I need to work on being more grounded on a regular basis, connect more, journal and blog more,  and connect with spirit for myself more. I need to come up with a ritual for everything–something I make time for every.single.day. I need to meditate to connect, and listen to what I am told. I need to connect with my higher self, and take care of me, as well as give to others. I am “a mermaid away from the water for too long”, I am told. So, more baths as well. Apparently, I have spent so much time lately taking care of others, I have neglected myself. So, time for a change.

All this from one session of Reiki. It is very powerful, and life-changing. I have decided that I am going to get Reiki once a month, as it is incredibly important for my well-being, and for my own work. Plus, it is also so nice to practice what I preach. I have to be here 100% in order to be here for my clients, and that means letting go of my own stuff to help them let go of theirs.

Wow. What a session. I feel pretty wiped out and exhausted right now. So, I am going to go outside for a little bit, with my dogs, and sit under my special tree. And just sit. and be. for a little while.

If you haven’t tried Reiki, I suggest you do. It can really be positively life-changing!

Until next time….