It is a lovely,rainy Sunday morning in April. I am having a leisurely morning, hanging out with the pack (my husband Chris, 2 dogs and bird right now). Allowing myself some much-needed downtime from life is a blessing, as it is giving me time to reflect on my past week, along with the inspiration to blog.

Starting 3 weeks ago, I had this strong gut feeling that this past week, something “big” would happen in my life. I noticed all my clients who had scheduled for that week were re-scheduling, as if the universe was subconsciously instructing them to give me the week off. It did NOT go unnoticed by me, so I was quietly expecting (hoping?) something very important was going to happen. Several different astrological forecasts for the week I read said the same thing. So, I pleasantly braced myself for big life changes. Looking at my own appointments for the week, I realized I had scheduled a Reiki session, a chiropractic session, and a massage/energy session, all within 5 days of each other. So, starting on Monday, I braced myself  for a BIG event.

My Reiki session went great. I finally had to admit to someone that 2015 had not been a great year so far-

-Chris still had daily pain from his car accident last September.                                                                                                                                                          -We were both still grieving for our 10 yr old golden who died in October.                                                                                                                                   —-We were both getting frustrated with our 6 month old puppy, who we slacked on training, unfortunately.                                                                         —-Everyday life was stressful for all of the above.

I kept acting like everything was great, but in fact, it was not easy. Any of it. It seems admitting that to Erika was very beneficial, and crying about it even more so. But no big relevations happened.

Then, in my chiropractic session, Dr Tara gave me the “biggest adjustment of the week” award. She said I was incredibly tight in the thoracic area (mid back, by the heart and lungs). I had been having a hard time taking a deep breath since my reiki session, and this was the “physical” reason why. So, she cracked me right back into place, and then I could breathe. It felt great!

Finally, in my massage/energy session, Debby sensed sadness and anger. She saw darkness in my mid-back area, by my lungs and heart. Once we both visualized it leaving, she suddenly saw a big, blooming yellow daffodil! She also saw a little old man with a bag over his shoulder leaving my space. Ahhh. Relief for Jen! Yet, STILL NO BIG REVELATION! I can not say “disappointment” was not felt, deep down.

At the same time, Chris was also getting several kinds of therapy for his pain. The last one was on Friday, in which he had the first of 4 sessions of deep-tissue laser therapy. It was a fricking MIRACLE!! He felt 100x better after one session. He did an all day side job on Saturday, and still wasn’t hurting too bad this morning. This, of course, made all of our existences better, because when Chris is happy ,we are all happy!

So, as I was laying in bed with the pack this morning, thinking about how my big revelation never happened, it suddenly hit me! It HAD happened! It just wasn’t what I expected.

**I finally admitted to the world that my life wasn’t as good as I liked to make it out to be.

**I allowed myself to cry for as long as it took to let it go.

**I learned from 2 different practitioners that I needed to breathe better, and deeper, and how to do it.

**My husband is finally feeling better. Just Friday morning I saw darkness around him, and by that night, I saw light in its place. Deep down this gave me instant trust that our future would soon be better and happier. And much, much brighter.

**You don’t have to do things, like train your stubborn puppy, on your own. Ask for help. So, we signed up for puppy classes at the humane society, and will train this little one after all!

But, the most important thing I learned this past week was, when you ask for something, don’t have expectations as to how or why you will get your answer. Had I not sat back and accepted the outcome, I would not have realized that I did have my big revelation this week. Since I had specific expectations as to what the revelation would be, I was disappointed when it didn’t happen the exact way I thought it would. Therfore, I almost missed out on the realization that, in the end, I got exactly what I wanted, and intuitively felt.

So, the lesson I am trying to pass on here, if it isn’t clear, is…when you ask the universe for a message, or help, or anything for that matter, don’t limit yourself to the way you hear/feel/receive your answer. Be open to the different ways it can come to you. Because if you don’t, you may miss the final message altogether.

Until next time….