Today, I did my big release session with Deborah.

It was pretty amazing, as I was fully ready. I went in smiling and happy, and, as usual, was tearful within just 10 minutes. The power of letting go. We did the first word, best word exercise, where Deborah would say a word, and I would have to say the first word to come to mind. It was easy on her end: the only word was, yup, Jesus. On my end, it started off funny, as the first word was “freaky”. Then, I was joyful and looking around, and saying words like “everywhere, dog, rug, fan”. After the 10th word, I started going deeper, with “calmness, deep breath, love”. The tears came. Then, the words were on the line of “not scary, love, air”. With “poop” (my brain can only think so many words in so many minutes!), I lightened up again, for 1 word. Then back to deep tears with “inside, tearful, taller, thankful” and eventually “ME”. Wow! It was very cool, and exhausting and exhilarating, all at once.

I realized my main wall was made up of fear. Fear of what others, including family, would think of me if I changed my mind on all of this. I will say that yesterday’s blog really helped me come to terms with it. If nothing else today, I have gained another powerful helper in my Reiki.  To me, Jesus’s name is JC, and he comes to me in the form of John Redcorn from the cartoon King of the Hill. He is an Indian man, with long black hair, and six-pack abs. In the past, he has come to me as Arch Angel Michael, who in the beginning always looked like Jesus. Last week, I decided that to me, AA Michael AND Jesus were twins, so it is not surprising that he came to me in this form. But, hey! Whatever works, right?

I also discovered that in a previous life, I was a male horse-shoe’er who could see spirits. He had a horse named Koda (cue more tears), and Koda told me he would be with me in many lives. Well, this man was in a big scary house, and saw a mean spirit, who scared him so bad, he vowed to never see them again. He became a recluse after that, and died alone. So, we had to go in and help him see spirits don’t have to be scary. All of a sudden, I saw (with my eyes closed), an eye open up and stare back at me. After calming me down, Deborah explained that this was an amazing happening for my future. I also had JC give me a knife, that was made of light. He said whenever I was scared of spirits, take out the knife and cover them with light. WOW! PRETTY FRICKIN COOL!!!

After that, I laid on the John of God table to fully let go of everything that had just come up. I felt taller after that. More calm. My aura has changed to softer, which is cool, I think.

So, now I have to talk to JC every day, and ask him questions to build my own relationship with him. I am very excited about this. I am especially happy to have such a powerful tool with me in my Reiki sessions. I am going to go forward with my Mediumship classes with Charles Virtue, which will help immensely. I have to keep building my repertoire if I want to fulfill my destiny of “Healer to the Stars!” My plan is to do this sooner, rather than later!!

So, if anyone knows they have deep issues about things, I highly suggest looking into your being, and letting those issues go. It is such an amazing feeling to go to a higher vibration, which I think happens every time you shed things from the past. I feel amazing!

Until next time…..