Wow. At this moment in time, that is all I can say. But I want, and need, to elaborate, so here goes…(deep breath).

In the past 8 days, I have had 8 Reiki sessions, all focusing on my root chakra. Your root chakra is your first chakra, and it deals with childhood issues. This is the most important one, because if IT is not balanced correctly, none of the others are, either.

When I was very little, we lived on some acreage in Rhode Island. We lived in a very old farmhouse, with many animals–several dogs, horses, cats, a monkey AND a parrot. I remember having my little imaginary friend I had named Dearie (weird name, but I later found out she was my spirit guide named Daria!).

My parents separated and got divorced when I was 4. My whole world changed. we went from my amazing life above, to mom and I living in an apartment in Providence, with Dad living nearby in his own place. I would see him once or twice a week. When I was 9, my mom, stepfather and I moved across the country to Vancouver,BC, and I have barely lived in the same state as my dad since. It was rough, but we all made it work.

I never thought about how much that divorce affected me deep down, until today.

My Reiki Master was doing all these sessions long distance. She would email me later with what she received, including her visions of me. She didn’t know any of the above, until later. She saw me as a little one, in lots of big fluffy grass, blowing bubbles, being free and happy, with a big imagination and make-believe world. Then saw sadness, then tears, and me very quiet for a long time after that.

I was able to confirm everything she saw. I was looking for a picture of me to send her, and found one with our dog, Pingwa (see above picture). As soon as I sent it, I started my meditation. It ALL hit me at once. I started crying and was soon sobbing uncontrollably. I let it come naturally, as that meant the sadness and emotions were leaving my body for good. As I was crying, I realized that everything she saw was true. I then focused, and let go of so much sadness from my whole world changing overnight. One day I had all this “happy”, with so many animals that I was connected to. And suddenly, not only was my dad gone, but every animal was, too. Of course, I was devastated. However, at that age, we can’t express ourselves fully, so we simply suck it in and ingest it. It stays there, being dumped on more and more, until, as an adult, we find a way to go deep and let it all hang out. The great thing about Reiki is you don’t have to relive it as it comes out. Your Reiki Master may simply release it! Poof!  Gone! You usually DO have to deal with the aftermath, like I am doing. But it is SO MUCH BETTER than “talking” therapy!

So, now, by writing this blog, I am fully releasing all those horrible feelings of my 3-4 year old inside of me. I was scared to lose my mom when I was with her, and my dad when I was with him. He has told me that he would have to take me in to the men’s room with him sometimes, to appease me. I think all that fear has stayed with me, and I have been afraid of so many new things in my life. I have been afraid to try anything that might take control out of my hands. Having that deep down fear really does affect you, especially at my age.

Just last week, I had finally  decided I had it with fear. Although I HAD been coming out of my comfort zone these past few years, I was really ready. I am ready to go for it. To be incredibly successful with my Reiki practice. To have NO fear whatsoever. To simply trust that I will be amazing for the rest of my life. Yet, to do this, all fear holding me back must be gone.

So, I have been letting myself cry as much as I need to. I took a shower and cried more. But, then I had a vision…of me, blooming like a flower. A lotus, in fact. I suddenly felt incredibly tall, like my spirit and energy were huge. Like I was blossoming. It wasn’t until just now I realized that, in the info I found on Root Chakra, they describe it as a blossoming lotus flower, in your spine. That is pretty much what I saw and felt in my shower. Crazy!

And here is the daily affirmation:

Affirmation for the Root Chakra: I am safe in the world around me. I belong in this world, and am a part of Gaia (mother-earth). I am at peace with my surroundings, with the people and the events that occur.

Now, remember–it took me 8 intense, focused sessions in a short time to get this information. This is why some people give up on it. They don’t have the money/time/patience/desire to do the work to get to where they want to be. They want instant gratification. However, I just released 46 years of deep sadness today. I know I still have more to go, but I also feel it just made me 3 feet taller than I was. and I released much sadness and hurt from my heart chakra at the same time. once I clear my root chakra and it is fully open, the others will fall into place. (phew….that was heavy…deeeeppp breathe again).

Here’s the cool part….this is all stuff I can do for MY clients, too. It is crazy helpful. and I am working on offering amazing deals to be able to help more people. I never want money to get in the way of someone letting go of old stressors.

So, dear loyal readers, if this is something you wish to try, please contact me at jenhopkins2001@yahoo.com. we can start from there.

I’m going to go play with my dogs now…

until next time!