Grief. Most of us have experienced it in our lifetime, whether it be losing a family member, a friend, a fur-kid. Even losing a relationship, whether it be romantic or platonic can cause grief. We know the emotional aspect of it….sadness, mostly. and some anger. Sometimes it takes a few weeks, months, even years. Sometimes we never get over it. Or we ACT like we are fine, but we really aren’t. What happens to the emotions from grief then, when he aren’t being honest with ourselves, or others, about how we truly feel. Because it doesn’t just “go” away.

We keep it in our bodies. DEEP down in our bodies. We start getting backaches, stomach aches. Even headaches. It starts to manifest in other areas. Our body can feel like its starting to slow down. We think it simply comes from aging. Or not moving enough. Or bad diet. But do we ever simply think “hey, maybe it’s the grief!” I hadn’t thought about this…until yesterday.

I received a massage/reiki session from a new practitioner. Of course, I had my typical problem….my back. On my left side. RIGHT under my heart space. (hmmmm…interesting!). So, she started doing a lot of massage there. It felt better, but was still clearly there. So, when I turned over and laid on my back, she started doing some reiki. She said the top of my abdomen felt rigid. I could feel it too. She then realized it was directly related to my back pain. So, she had me close my eyes and breathe into it, to release it. With my eyes closed, I suddenly saw 2 distinct colors: yellow, and light yellow….which is Koda and Echo (all the colors of the world, and Echo chooses one right next to Kodas! lol). They both said to me “You MUST let go of your grief NOW. We are both still here with you, EVERY day. You are sad we died and left, but we didn’t. So, please, release the sadness and grief you are holding onto about us”. And poof….I felt my grief leave my body. My abdomen felt mushy again. and my back loosened up. I mean, come on…WHO KNEW??

Yes, I should have known. I AM a Reiki master, after all. We hold anger in our bellies, sadness, worry and fear in our backs. I am pretty sure grief is held everywhere. By letting go of the grief, the block was removed that it was holding in. I now feel so much better, physically AND emotionally than I have in a very long time. Kodabear died 3.5 years ago, and I am pretty sure I have had backpain most of that time. I assumed I was empathing it from my husbands car accident. Apparently not!

As soon as I left the therapists house, I saw a butterfly. A BIG butterfly. that is Koda’s sign. I thanked him for his help.

Today, for the first time in a long time, my back doesn’t hurt. My stomach even feels better. I have finally released the grief that my body decided to hold onto. Just this one thing will improve the reiki I do on my clients. “Back pain, you say? And for how long? Have you experienced any grief around the time your back pain started?” See? I even have new questions to ask.

Grief is a crazy thing. We feel like we are not being loyal to whoever we lost if we don’t stay so sad about losing them. When, in reality, that “being” would NEVER want us to be feeling pain, be it physical and/or emotional. They just want us to be happy and play, play, play!

Just wanted to share my new discovery with awesome followers!!

Until next time….