Well, it HAS been quite the year, huh? and to think 2018 is only HALF OVER!

With all the turmoil our country (and the world) is going through, I decided that for my own sanity, it would be a good year to work on bettering myself. Focusing on what I can control makes me feel like the future may be positive, and not falling apart.

So, I have had several different “releasing” modalities done on myself. The ONE that worked the most is the controversial one, as it has to do with energy, old AND new. It is called Emotion Code. In this process, I released many old trapped emotions that created a “heartwall”, or invisible protection around the heart. Not only were these from my parents, but many were also from ancestors (another controversial part). In fact, some were from 212 generations ago!! How CRAZY and COOL is that? Sooo many deep feelings of betrayal, bitterness, forlorn, and even hatred. Most people release their emotions in 2-5 sessions. Nope! Not me! I had 6 sessions done. Yup! Because I AM AN EMPATH! From the minute I was conceived, I was an empath, sucking in the sadness of all those around me. But I have now released it, and am feeling amazing!

Apparently, in releasing all that, I also released the emotion called FEAR. I am suddenly thinking of our future with the KNOWING feeling that we are going to ROCK it! I KNOW I am going to be successful at my Animal Communication and Energy Healing. I feel it. DEEP DEEP down, my amazing intuition is saying that I have found my path. THIS IS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

My husband is a top-notched Heating and Air Condition tech (HVAC), and has worked for 2 companies in his 21 years of it. He has wanted to go out on his own for 5 years, and I have NEVER been behind that concept. SO.MUCH.FEAR around it. and SOOOO many “what-ifs”. you know….what if he doesn’t do well? What if he gets injured? What if there is no business?” However, I have sat back and watched him lately. He is amazing at what he does. Someone can explain what is going on, and he can diagnose the problem without even seeing it. He is very Clare Cognizant (the all-knowing, commonly described as the “know-it-all”. Yup. That’s Chris! lol). He has so many side jobs, he is overwhelmed. He works 6-7 days a week, until his body can’t take it anymore, and he HAS to take a day off. Because THAT is how in-demand he is.

So, why didn’t he go out on his own a while ago? Fear. I had too many people around me saying “no way”, and I listened to them. Too many people giving us their negative input. Too many naysayers who didn’t believe it could be done. But, in doing all this self-work, I personally have cut the chords of worry. I am not, and will never again, let the worry of other people dictate what I do with my life. Let me repeat that, for myself more than anything. I AM NOT, AND WILL NEVER AGAIN, LET THE WORRY OF OTHER PEOPLE DICTATE  WHAT I DO WITH MY LIFE. And I support my husband’s happiness. And his new endevour.

I am taking back my power. I will NEVER be AFRAID TO FAIL. If we gave in every time we felt that fear, we would be…pretty much where we are now. And, in giving UP that, well…. fear of fear-–when I think of our future, I think BRIGHT. Like “put on our sunglasses because it is blinding” bright. “Endless possibilities” bright. “HOLY COW…there is no stopping us” bright. I am more excited about what the future holds NOW than I have ever been. Because I TRUST that we will be ok. No….we will be so much BETTER than ok. Chris has worked for somebody else his entire life–since he got his first job at 16. 30 years of that. He deserves this, and he deserves me being supportive, and not fearful. Besides. Who wants that negativity put out there around their future??

I know not everyone will be on board. The nay-sayers will still have to cut it down. But, that is their opinion, and no longer has an affect on me. I see the future, and I see how fulfilling and free it will be. Free to take vacations when we want. Free to take days off. Free to work 10 or 50 hours a week.

Freedom.

Isn’t that REALLY what the “American Dream” is? Freedom to do whatever you want? And to do that, you HAVE to release the “fear” around it. Or you will bring yourself down with all the worry.

This won’t happen overnight. But it will happen soon. I can promise you that!!

Ahhh, I feel so free! lol

Until next time……