Yesterday, I had a vision.

It was of me, and my husband Chris, and we were both surrounded by giant cocoons.  We were completely encapsulated and knew we were on the verge of breaking free, and emerging like a beautiful butterfly.

Now, this is PERFECT (of course) because he is on the verge of working for himself for the first time in his life. And, I am currently in school, and already KNOW that my Animal Communication is going to wildly change my life.

The cocoon also explains these feelings of claustrophobia I have been getting lately. I have felt chaos going on outside of me, outside of my house (as they do construction), and honestly, in the world. Right now, California is burning up. Climate change is taking control of the weather. Politics, and our current (ahem) “president” are all crazy. I have felt overwhelming doom around me, but have been able to shake it off, and focus internally. That, right there, is pretty huge for me.

I have also been focusing on losing weight and getting in shape. Well…err…..I WANT to focus on getting in shape. That entails actually working OUT and I have NOT done that part quite yet. In fact, truth be told, I haven’t even been walking my poor dogs lately. That turmoil around me keeps the excuses going in my head on WHY I can’t walk the dogs right now. and then it doesn’t get done at all. Too hot. or too busy. or too tired. or…or…or… we ALL know how that goes!

The vision yesterday went deeper, and made me see that this is all wrapped around fear of being wildly amazing in the future! I am afraid of my own possible success! wha????? That is CRAZY! But, that is also ego-driven. Because, then the “what-ifs” pop up again.

What if….I fail?? What if…I am TOO successful (?)? What if….I am too overwhelmed? what if….it changes my life (isn’t that the point?)? What if….I don’t succeed and then I NEVER lose the weight? What if….the brain goes on and on with these insane what if’s. Eventually, you get to the point of why.even.try?

Somehow, however, I have gotten to the point of….screw the what if’s! Or how about: What if….I succeed? What if…I am amazing? What if…I LOVE looking at myself in the mirror naked? What if….I become wildly famous for helping animals have a voice? What if….I NEVER look back. Isn’t that what we all deeply want? To succeed and never look back?

It doesn’t mean I will forget who I am. I am who I am down to the core. When I successfully get to my desired weight, there will just be less of me there, which is a good thing! I want to lose weight more than anything in the world. I am getting there. I am actually catching myself in self-sabatoge, and stopping it before it happens! I am realizing I am procrastinating the working out, because that is the next step to get to my goal. I am NOT afraid to be beautiful on the outside. I am finally feeling beautiful on the inside, and I feel it starting to break through that cocoon. It is coming out, whether or not I am ready. So, I best embrace it and be ready to shine.

And, as for Chris, he has been ready for his adventure for years. He has a little fear around it, of course, but that is about to break off and shatter when he explodes out of his cocoon, as well. The really crazy lucky thing is that we are both in this whole change together, and are here, supporting one another through it all. Having someone by your side, understanding what it is like to lose the fear that has been holding you back is huge! I realize how incredibly lucky we are to have found each other 28 years ago, and hang on to eachother through the good AND bad times, so we can get to this place… together.

Tomorrow is the 3rd super new moon in less than 2 months. The energy of this summer has been off the charts, and we have felt it. We have braced ourselves, and allowed life to flow, so we could get to this point. We are doing a new moon ceremony with some other people tomorrow, and will completely let go of all this fear I have mentioned. We will then EMERGE and break through that cocoon, like superman flying through the sky with one arm in front of our body, fist clenched. (Actually, I will be Wonder Woman, and he will be Superman!!) He will have our capes around us, protecting us from the debris that falls off as we fly way up high. The new, skinnier versions of ourselves will then replace the ones surrounded by fear and chaos, and we will crush any negative emotions that then get in our way. (Hey, I am a VERY visual person, and am simply describing what I am being shown!)

We are destined for greatness, success, and happiness, and no fear will stop us.

Anyone care to join us??

Until next time….