Wow, it looks like it has been 4 months since my last post. Apparently, life has gotten in the way-been a busy summer.

Today, a meditation I did inspired me to write. I am training to be a Reiki Master, and one of the things we do is daily meditation. For whatever reason, this has proven difficult for me. I am overcoming that, and learning I just need to do it first thing in the morning, and then I do great! Just like exercising-there always seem to be things that we know we need to do, but for many reasons are easy to put off. The problem is, those usually seem to be the things that are good for us! hmmm…interesting.

My golden retriever, Kodabear, has cancer. I have blogged about this several times already, I know. But, he is teaching me more and more-this time, through my meditation. Today is his 10.5 month anniversary of his diagnoses,  and he was given 3 months! wow! We feel so blessed to still have him. He gives and gets so much love, it is easy to know that love DOES have something to do with it. As do all the herbs and the special oil we have been giving him since day 1. However, the last month has been a little difficult. He had a bleed last month, and it is taking him awhile to recover. As much as I know that this is normal, it still is not easy to watch. Yesterday was rough bc we gave him too much of a new oil the night before. He was so relaxed during the night, that he didn’t even move to go to the bathroom. It was a fun mess to clean up! At first, I thought the dreaded time had come, and honestly, felt a little relief. My husband and vet figured out it was from the meds, which was great to hear, but then left guilty feelings for me. How could I be ok with it being his time? Today, he is better, but still not eating much.

So, this morning, after sitting and crying for a little while over relief, and guilt, I decided to use this as my meditation topic. Kodabears’ cancer. I went in asking for help with it. I must say I feel much better after receiving the answers that I did, from both of our higher selves, and that who calls himself “spirit”. I was told:

–Stop comparing the old Koda to this Koda. The old one is in the past. This is the new norm. He is happy, and that is the main thing. He doesn’t have as much energy, but that doesn’t mean he is less deserving to be here. Just accept him for the loving being he is today, and spend time with him. He is very tired, as he is still anemic, but that doesn’t mean he is any less happy.

–Since he is moving a lot less, he doesn’t need to eat as much as he used to. So, please do not worry about his lesser appetite. He will eat how much he wants and drink his water. the day he completely turns up his nose at both (including yummy treats!), is the day you need to make your decision to let him go. Until then, feed him what ever he wants, and keep the water coming.

–Just love him. That is all he wants. He does not have the energy to play and take walks anymore, but he is still happy. He loves to watch us play with Shiloh. He is content just sitting and observing, feeling the love around him. He is still happy. That is the key. As soon as he is not, he will let us know, in his own way. We will know. How? We will just know. He will give us a sign, whether it be a look, or a certain lick, or a sign that we will recognize. Until then, do not worry. Please. Just love him and accept him as the new dog he is.

There is my baby, still teaching me lessons: the lesson of patience, the lesson of love, the lesson of not giving up and the lesson of acceptance.

I admit: it has been a difficult month for me. The idea of losing him is scary. But, doing my intuitive work has helped me fully believe that he will still be with us, when that day does come. And, part of me believes he will also be the first spirit I will see, which, I admit, is comforting to me. Until then, I can wait.

So, after my meditation, I cuddled with him. I loved on him. I talked to him and told him that I accept the new Koda, and just want him to be happy. As long as he is smiling and wagging his tail, we will both know that he is still happy to be with us.

I am now becoming excited about my daily meditations, as it is the perfect opportunity to get advice from all-knowing entities. I have noticed that it does make me feel better in the end, and when I feel hopeless, it adds more hope, and lets me see things from a different perspective. If you have not tried meditation, it is worth trying. Just to see things from another view.

Until next time…….