Dear Koda.

It’s been a while since I have written to you, which is a good thing! Yesterday was our 15 month anniversary of losing you. I will admit, it was NOT an easy day for me.

My good friend Harley died, Koda. He was just like you…an old-soul golden retriever. Just 4 months younger than you. But, he was lucky and made it to 11. Here he is:

He, too, had found his soul mate, just like you. She was his human, Erika.

Harley had problems with his heart, but was also a miracle dog, just like you.

Just like you, Koda, he way outlived his “expiration date” the vets had given him. They said 2 months. He said “HA! 2 months! Take THAT, and add an extra year to it!” He did, Koda! He lived 15 months! He was taking lots of supplements, just like you. And had so.much.love. Just like you.

He was Erika’s best friend, soul mate, Reiki partner, confidante. Just like you were to me. We have so much in common, you and me, with Erika and Harley.

He would go with her to all her sessions, and help her clients heal. I know, you would have done that had I let you. But, you were needed to do it from afar.

So, now that Harley is gone, I am missing you both. I know you are with me, just as Harley is with Erika already. I know that. I can FEEL that. I know that when people transition, they take up to several months to let go of their humanness. to fully go into the spirit world. However, since animals don’t have humanness (duh), they have no annoying ego, so they simply transition, just like that. You are ALL lucky like that!

But, thinking back to when you transitioned, I see one difference between then and now. Chris and I went through it all together, and we also had the whole pack. We had Shiloh, Tigger, Silli and even Gabby. We were all right there when it was your time to cross the rainbow bridge. We had lots of love right here, and the whole pack gave it to us. I was never “alone”. I always had some living thing breathing down my neck, whether I wanted it or not. Which 99% of the time it helped!

But Erika and Harley were their own pack. They were all each other needed. They fully took care of each other. Until now. Now, don’t get me wrong. Erika is not “alone”, as she has lots of love and support. She has so many amazing friends and family and clients who all love her dearly. But, when she is home, really missing Harley because every.little.thing is reminding her of him, she needs to know she is really not alone.

She is very lucky, as she can already see spirits. I am on the verge, but when you left me, I could not see or feel you. It was Erika that gave me my prism, and said whenever I saw the rainbow, to know it was you. In fact, here is a reminder:

this was taken only 2 weeks after you were gone, and Shiloh was sad and lonely. You were LAYING ON HER!! It was so sweet!

So, here is what I ask. You and Harley both need to go and be with Erika. Keep her company. Lick her face when she is sad, Lay next to her in bed as she is going to sleep, nestle with her when she is crying. Give her little signs to show you are both there, (or not, since she can see you already. I know, DUH, momma!)

I just want to make sure she knows how loved she is, and that she is never alone. Because going through the loss of your soul mate is one of the hardest things one will ever go through. I know. Losing you floored me. For a long time. But, now that it is 15 months later, I can take a deep breath, feel you with me, and simply trust that everything will be ok.

And, I want that for my friend too. My friend who is hurting. and needs doggie love.

So, please Koda. Go be with my friend and her soul mate. Help her heal. I will call on you when I need you, but just for a short time, Erika needs you more.

I love you, Koda and I miss you so much. And, just like Koda, I love you Harley and I miss you already.

And Erika. I love you, too, Erika and I wrote this for you, to know just how loved you are. xxoo

until next time….